Umm...no. The answer is no, I do not regret any of my choices.
I don't believe in having regrets. They are simply not a part of my vocabulary. If I ever feel like I'm doing something that I may regret later or wish I had done differently, then I simply change it. This way I don't have to look back upon those choices with regret. Seems easy enough right?
Years ago, when the kiddo was about a year old, I found myself stuck. I had just started working this fabulous job- good pay, nice corner office with a window, travel....you get the picture. And yet, every single day I would look out my 13th floor office window at the people down below and wish I was out there. With my child. Instead of being stuck in there.
So you know what I did....I quit.
Easy as that. If something is not working in your life, change it.
Pretty crazy idea huh? But the reality is this- you have one life to live. So live it. The way you want to live it and don't waste it looking back wishing you had done something differently.
Yes- quitting my job was a major step. Of course I was anxious about this choice but I knew that I couldn't continue to struggle day in and day out. I couldn't keep dragging my behind out of bed at 4am, not seeing my baby until 3pm every day. I wanted to be home, playing outside in the sandbox, going for walks, taking the kiddo to story time at the library- I wanted this. And for me, it was worth making some drastic changes so that my husband and I could afford this life change.
I won't say that we haven't struggled. But what I will tell you is that by simply making this one choice, by following my heart instead of my head- it has led us to make many other life choices. I probably wouldn't have become so obsessed with eating healthy. We probably would have continued eating meat because I wouldn't have taken the time away from my child to worry about this. And we definitely would NOT have even considered homeschooling. Homeschooling with 2 working parents- yeah...I wouldn't have even thought that possible. And yes, I know many of you do- so Kuddos! But I'm simply not sure if this would have been something I could see myself doing.
It's strange how by making just one choice, it's led me to the life I'm currently living. I'm happy. And I don't for one minute wish that I had stayed in that high rise surrounded by my fellow employees, talking about our children and showing their pictures. I see my child, in person. Every day, all day. Not in a photograph. And you can't put a price on that.
So no- I don't have any regrets. Do you?
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