In the Public Eye

Here's the thing about having a blog with over 25K readers and a rapidly growing Facebook page- you are officially "in the spotlight".

This is a decision that I wrestle with almost daily.  Am I doing the right thing?  Should I even post photo's of my child?  Should I tell people the general area we live?  Will I have regrets?  What does my husband have to say about all this?  Should I share less?  More?

It's hard you guys.  Much more difficult then I ever thought possible.  I want to share our journey with you all, I want to put a realness to this path of homeschooling.  I want you all to know that parenthood is hard, that it's not all sunshine and roses, that marriage takes work, that homeschooling is worth it- but at what cost?

Recently, I have had some of my fans reach out to me via my personal Facebook page- not my Homeschooled Housewife fan page.  While I love that you are interested in knowing more about me and while for most of you- I do already consider you friends, I have to decide where to draw that line.  In addition, some folks that my husband and I have banned from our personal pages are using my fan page to keep tabs on our family.  That scares me and makes my husband extremely upset that they would go to such lengths.  So I've had to do some re-evaluating for both my personal and fan pages.

Lines are being drawn

The reality is this- I'm much more active over on the fan page.  If you want to get to know the real me, this is the place to do it.  Well- that and my Pinterest page!  I reserve my personal page for mainly family and close friends and I post mostly funny memes and Disney stuff there.  Truly, it's very boring so fear not- you aren't missing anything!

Topics that relate to marriage, motherhood, homeschooling and in general- just real life, it's all over on the fan page.  In talking with my husband, he cautioned me to keep these as separate as possible.  The truth of the matter is that I already invite everyone into our lives via the fan page and that some things, like convo's between my Mom or the neighbor, should stay private.  So for now- I won't be accepting friend requests from fans on my personal Facebook page.  I hope that you all can understand.

I consider you my friends already.  I am so thankful to have this great community of supportive wives, mothers and homeschoolers.  But as my husband pointed out- there has to be a line somewhere.  So thank you- really, THANK YOU, for your desire to know more about me and my family and thank you for your understanding.

I'm still learning how to navigate being "in the public" and trying to figure out a balance that my boys can appreciate.  And while I'm no Diary of a Mom, I'm doing the best I can to find a solution that works for everyone.

You Should Also Know-

• I don't post photos of myself on the fan page
• I very rarely post photos of the husband
• There's a few topics that are off limits
• I do my best to answer any & all questions with 100% honesty
• If I think the subject matter would embarrass the kiddo, I do not post it
• I do my best not to offend or post topics that others might find offensive
• I do not post photo's of others without asking permission
• I am not perfect, this is the real me

I am very aware that every single thing I put out there is now public.  My husband is very aware that there are people viewing our family's page (because it really is a family page) and my blog, that we would rather not be viewing.  And if we ever feel that our safety is compromised, I will pull the plug immediately.

But friends- I sincerely hope it doesn't ever come to that.  I enjoy sharing with you all far too much and I hope I will be able to do so for many years to come.

As always, thank you for reading and for following along on our journey.

The Homeschooled Housewife

A Valuable Lesson

Contrary to popular belief, homeschoolers do socialize.  Quite well in fact.  But every once in awhile you find yourself in a situation that is very reminiscent of grade school bullying.  Yes, even homeschoolers must face bullying.

And so it was that the kiddo found himself in a situation where an older boy was physically aggressive towards him and his friend on the playground.  Yes, I said playground.  We go to playgrounds too you know....but I digress.  The kiddo made friends with this boy and for several weeks, they all played happily together.

But then one Monday, the kiddo told me what had happened.  "He just kept pushing me to the ground Mom and last time I hit my head.  I told him to stop but he wasn't listening."

We went over appropriate responses with the kiddo.  Tell the boy firmly to stop and walk away and come find me if he didn't.  Heck- I even reached out to this boy's parents in an effort to stop this bullying in its tracks.  Well- I'm sure you can all guess that this boy didn't stop.  In fact, he did the very opposite of stop.

And so- I gave my child permission to defend himself.

Normally I don't advocate violence.  But when you are in a situation where another person is harming you and not respecting your personal space, it is absolutely OK for you to stop them by any means necessary.  There is never a situation in which you should allow yourself to be the victim.  Never.  Yes, this goes for our children as well.

Now- the kiddo has been taking Karate for several years and he's been working with his Dad on Jujitsu.  He knows how to defend himself.  He knows to only use his Karate for good- because, well...that's what the Sensei has them repeat at the end of every class.  The kiddo does not misuse his Karate.

And so it was that the following week, this boy was again hurting my child.  He asked him to stop.  He tried to walk away and when that didn't work- he punched this boy in the stomach.  Hard.

My child stood up for himself and for his friend.  He tried all non-violent means of resolution and when that didn't work, he defended himself.  For this, I am very proud of him.

"Mom, I did it.  I can stop someone from hurting me and my friends.  I wasn't sure if I could, but now I know I can."

Lessons come in all packages.

This one taught the kiddo how important it is to respect other people.  How to use your voice to seek resolution, to have faith in himself and how to effectively deal with a bully.  Since that day, this boy has not been a problem.  Perhaps it's because a child half his size knocked him down a peg or two.  Or perhaps it's because he finally understood that it hurts when someone hits you. Who knows really...but what I do know is that my child learned some valuable lessons that day, lessons that he won't soon forget.

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After some feedback on this post- I am editing it to add the following.

We pursued all avenues of non-violent resolution prior to giving the kiddo permission to defend himself.  We reached out to the parents of the bully and I spoke with the bully myself but no changes were made.  In addition, we avoided this playground, hoping that this issue would simply "die down" and go away- it did not.

Our exact instructions for the kiddo were to "walk away and find an adult but if that wasn't possible- you have the right to defend yourself".  I stand behind this 100%.

Do I want my child to get hurt?  Of course not.

Am I happy that it had to come to this?  No.

Would I handle it exactly the same way?  Yes.

It is important to empower your children with a voice.  It is important to teach them that there are proper channels that must be followed and that immediately resorting to violence is not the answer.  But above all, it is important that they understand that they have the right to defend themselves against those that seek to do them harm, no matter who that person may be.

Quick Tips for the Grocery Store

For the most part, we are an all organic household.  The food that is...I'm still working on everything else.  We also have a pretty tight budget of $200 per week for all food, household items and gas.  Now- I know to most folks, this sounds like a lot of money.  But if you figure that I'm filling up my gas tank each week at $55, there goes 1/4 of my budget.  This means that I have roughly $150 to spend at the grocery store and this figure includes toiletries and household items.  As you can imagine, it's important to make the most of this small budget.

Sure, I coupon and shop the sales but if you buy organic food the coupons will only get you so far.  With the many changes that my family has made in our diets, I now shop in a completely different way.  Would you believe that I used to stock up on Progresso Soups when it was $10/10 at my local Albertson's?  Seriously- I would buy $30 worth of canned soup at a time AND do this every couple months!  Why?  Well because I thought it was cheap....and it was easy and the husband could easily make it and excuses, excuses, excuses.

Now of course I know how much healthier homemade soup is for you.  And HELLO- could soup be any easier to make?!?  Yeah- you could say I've had an awakening.  So today I'm going to share with you some items that I used to buy on the regular but will never buy again.  I will also be sharing a list of foods that I personally think are worth paying the extra money for and getting organic instead of conventional.

Here we go!


Never Buy This Again!

• Canned soup- so much cheaper & healthier to make your own & yes, this includes anything with the title "Cream of"
• Frozen dinners- create a freezer stockpile by cooking up a double batch & freezing half
• Granola Bars/Pop Tarts/Nutri Grain Bars- just as much sugar as candy
• Sugary Drinks- the only juice allowed in my house is organic OJ & organic Lemonade on occasion
• Pasta Sauce- so easy to make at home
• Desserts- homemade just tastes WAY better & you would be surprised at how easy cakes, pies, brownies etc are to make
• Pre-anything- think pre-shredded cheese, pre-cut apples, pre-shredded carrots, pre-diced onions etc.  Sure it may be convenient but it costs more & they add extra chemicals/additives to preserve it, no thanks!

Worth the Extra Money!

• Organic bread- if you can't make your own, please buy a good quality organic bread!
• Local Meat- do NOT eat factory farmed meat, please- I beg you!
• Dairy- our rule of thumb is simple, "if it comes from an animal it better be organic"
• Organic convenience food/snacks- if you need a few quick cheats (like we all do!) or chips for your salsa, please buy from brands such at Amy's, Late July or Annie's.
• Organic condiments- mayo that actually tastes like mayo- seriously it's amazeballs!

This list is pretty simple and it's my hope that it will get you thinking about ways you could save money and put it towards the better (and many times more expensive) options.  You'll notice that I left off produce and that's because while I feel buying all organic produce is the way to go, I know that for many folks- it's not reality.  I would much rather you buy a ton of fruits and veggies then none at all because you couldn't afford the more expensive counterparts.

You can do this, I know you can!

No More Doritos!

Recently, I ordered this local Black Bean Hummus with our organic CSA delivery.  We had never tried Black Bean Hummus before but I figured since we love black beans SO much, that we would probably like this stuff too!  And we did- boy did we ever love this!

SO good!

The husband and I were sitting in bed one night watching Sleepy Hollow and munching on chips and this "bean paste" as the husband calls it.  When he turned to me and said, "these are so much better then Doritos."

Shut.  The.  Front.  Door.

Prior to the "food change" that occurred in our household, we ate Doritos like they were going out of style.  Seriously- we loved them.  Thankfully, Doritos haven't graced my pantry in years but the husband and kiddo still have fond memories....So yes- it was kind of a BIG deal when the husband said he preferred this "bean paste" over his beloved Doritos.

In the weeks since we first tried this delicious Black Bean Hummus- I have ordered several more containers and the husband has now deemed it, "survival food" and labeled it a "necessity".  Really- who am I to argue?

But here's the thing- one little container of this delicious creamy beany goodness is $5.  And considering the husband can eat the whole container in one sitting- that's a lot of money.  SO....I thought to myself, "Self- you can TOTALLY make this stuff!"  And so I did.


Black Bean Hummus

1 can black beans, drained
1 garlic clove
1/2 teaspoon cumin
1/4 teaspoon salt
pinch of cayenne pepper
juice of half lime
tiny drizzle olive oil


Combine all the ingredients in your food processor.

Chill in the refrigerator for a few hours.

Enjoy.


So yeah....how easy is this business?!?  And can you believe the ingredients list?  This would be good for nachos, with pita, inside of a warmed flour tortilla or you could just eat it by the bowl full with your favorite tortilla chips.

I spy a kiddo doing his worksheets & munching
on this yummy stuff!

Death for Halloween

Halloween is a big deal for us.

But its not just about Halloween night, it's everything leading up to it.  The pumpkin patch a few weeks before, picking out the perfect costume, decorating the house, carving pumpkins, trick or treating with friends, taking professional photos of the kiddo in his costume, watching our favorite Halloween movies.  It's the time together and the traditions we are building.

So yeah- Halloween is kind of a big deal for us.

But you guys- this year, we've turned a corner.  In years past the kiddo has been a myriad of adorable costumed characters.  Sadly, this year when I asked him what he wanted to be for Halloween, his reply- "Death."

Umm.  What?

Yeah.  No.

And so we compromised.  That is what parenting is all about right?  Listening to your child and doing your best to reach an agreeable solution.  I am happy to report that the kiddo will NOT be dressing up as "Death" for Halloween.  I allowed him to choose his costume this year (with veto power by me and the husband) and so he's going as a creepy jester.

Bummer.

No more cute Disney characters or homemade Lego costumes.  It's all about the gross and scary now.  Close the book because that adorable chapter is done.  And so I find myself doing my very best to support and encourage the gross and scary- even when I want him to wear something sweet and colorful.

But I draw the line at "Death".

So here you go- a picture of the kiddo dressed in his Scary Jester costume.  Here's the link to order if you're interested and no- I didn't pay full price for this bad boy.  Hello Groupon!

Go Ahead: Frame That Picture!

Ladies- do you ever take a family photo and everyone looks super cute but you?  Or at least that's your perception of it anyway.  No amount of photo shopping is going to solve the frizzy hair and splotchy face.  And so, instead of displaying this photo that holds some truly sweet family memories, you keep it hidden.  Safe and sound on the old laptop photo drive.  Am I right?

I took one such photo just a few weeks ago when we visited the Pumpkin Patch.  In my defense, I had worked WAY late the night before and then had to get my boys up and out SUPER early.  FYI- the kiddo and husband do not do early.  At all.  I didn't shower and we were so rushed for time that I packed the kiddo a bean burrito for breakfast on the road, the husband a Kombucha and I- a gallon or so of coffee.

We were late in meeting up with Grammie and Grampie and immediately hopped in the line for the hayride to the pumpkin patch.  So yeah- I wasn't looking my very best.  But to be honest, I wasn't there to win any fashion awards- I was there for the fun.  Oh- and for the memories.

The husband wanted to take a photo of our family standing in front of the corn stalks and of course I agreed.  Although I totally tried to hide myself by putting the kiddo in front of me.  Yeah- it's a little trick of mine.  When we got home and I looked at the pictures, there was one really great one of me.  Only problem was the husband had his eyes closed and the kiddo was picking at something on his face.  Umm...yeah, totally not flattering for my boys AT ALL.  And then there was one that was super cute.  The kiddo was doing a "pose" that he'd never done before and the husband was laughing at something off in the distance but sadly, my eyes were all scrunched up and it wasn't very flattering.

Sigh...we seem to have this problem quite often.  When one looks good, the other doesn't and vice versa.  But we were all together and we all had a smile on our face and most importantly- we were all looking the same direction.  If you've ever taken a family photo with a small child, you know how major this is.

So I framed it.

And now- now I kinda love it.

This is simply my message to you all.  Us Mom, well- we have a tendency to only want to look our very best.  Frame the very best pictures and put all our good sides on display.  But you know what- those unflattering pictures are pretty great too.  It means that you accept that things aren't perfect.  It means you are confident in yourself but most importantly- it means that you are happy exactly where you are.

Go Ahead- Frame That Picture!

I framed it!

Public School Is Like Playing Russian Roulette

"Mom- how come I don't go to a regular school?"


How do I tell my 9 year old the real reason?

How do I tell him it's because public school isn't safe?

How do I explain to him about bullying and tell him that some kids are truly mean?

How do I tell him that some of his teachers really don't have his best interests in mind?

How do I tell him all the reasons that we have for keeping him at home?

Sometimes I pray for guidance.  Sweet Jesus tell me what to do.  Most times, it's quiet.  So I trust in myself- I listen to my heart as it seizes when I think of sending my baby out the door.  I pay attention to the fear that paralyzes me when I imagine all the what-ifs.

And then a moment happens.  A tragedy.  And I know that those feelings weren't just my feelings after all.  They were God's way of saying- LISTEN.  Pay attention sweet Mama and don't you send your child, my child- through those public school doors.

It's not safe.

Don't you play Russian Roulette with his education, with his life, with his heart.  Don't you do it.

And so, we continue to homeschool.  We keep watch over our child and protect his heart and his life because the sad reality is that public schools are simply not safe anymore.  Every time our children walk through those doors- there's a chance they won't be coming home.  And I know this is an inconvenient truth but it needs to be said.  Its hard to hear but it is our nation's reality.  Our children are not safe in school, they aren't.  So why do we keep sending them there?

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Today's blog post was in response to the tragic school shooting very close to where we live.  You can click the link here to read more about this story.  The reality is that this is NOT uncommon.  School's are no longer safe places for our children to learn.  They simply aren't.  And this is just one of the MANY reasons why we chose to homeschool.